It is no secret that I'm a planner & an organizer. I appreciate & thrive on order and control in my life. I like to be in the "know" with things that pertain to my family's life. Lately however, I feel like I'm swimming in a sea of unknowns.
I don't exactly know what to expect after Brian retires from the Air Force. Daily life without a uniform, medical coverage for retirees, retirement pay as opposed to full pay...It just seems so foreign right now. Unknown to be exact. I realize that we have several different plans in place, but what is actually going to happen is still unknown.
I don't exactly know where I'm going to work next school year. Although I indeed have several "pokers in the fire" and I know that I am wanted and that there will be positions open, it is still unsettling to know that I have essentially turned in my resignation already with nothing else lined up. This unknown is hard to sit with.
I don't exactly know where the kids will go to school next year or who will care for them in our absence. I do realize though, once we arrive in Florida, have a few meetings to determine which school fits best for our family & our needs, the decision will be made. But right now, the unknown is hard to plan around.
I don't exactly know what Brian will be doing as a retiree. Just like me, he has many pokers in the fire with many opportunities presenting themselves almost daily. Unlike me, he is far more patient, fluid, relaxed & easy going about the unknowns at this point. Depending on the job positions offered to him, it will drastically & ultimately change what our daily routine looks like. Again, the unknown is driving me crazy.
I do realize that I need to be patient. I know that time is still on our side. I'm just having a crazy week and would so appreciate to know the unknowns and put more of our plan into place.